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I Need To Find My Voice...........

It feels like it has been such a long time since I last had something to say, I struggle with being interesting or saying something meaningful, I want to show you my authentic self, I want to be real, be genuine, so that when I write, you will have a glimpse of who I am.......I realize how much I miss following some of my favorite blogs,and  I also have come to realize how much I miss posting on my own.

The Other Tracey and myself are linked in many ways, but we are different, yes we enjoy our business together, of course thrifting, and creating, but I want you to get to know me, just me in a way that is not about 41 Taylor or the Tumbleweed Cotillion. I guess what I am trying to say is I think I lost my inner-voice.......I love my girlfriends, and I want to remember them in these hectic times to nurture those relationships, I don't think any of us will look back and say I wish I had worked more........I want to remain true to my creative self, not the one that says, yikes I need to sell that, but to be creative for the pure joy of it! Sometimes, I get a little lost, lost in moments, lost in excitement, lost in my own thoughts, I also think I have lost my sense of direction and purpose.

What I know for sure is what really matters for me is the happiness that I find in the everyday things, my loving husband who I know will pick-up his cell every-time when he sees it's me, even when he is busy or in the middle of something, I know that for sure, my dog is happy see me every-time I walk through the door, my children and parents, oh how I love them.......I know for sure that I need to look after myself, to be grateful for these wonderful moments that God has given me!

I am working to restore my inner voice to find the natural rhythm of my words and my writing, I know for sure that I will continue to search for it and I will find it..........

Cool Summer Treat.........

I wanted to share a quick post with you, I know I have mentioned I have my retired, widowed neighbor Paul over for dinner every Tuesday night, he loves dessert and I have to admit, he mostly gets ice cream and homemade cookies, nothing wrong with that of course but tonight I decided to make a special pretty treat.......it is so easy and only take a few minutes.

lemons, sherbet, and fresh berries......hollow out the lemon with a grapefruit knife, add a little sherbet, and top with a berry or drizzle fresh berries over the top, I only used one because I was down to my last few! so yummy and refreshing on a hot summer night.........

How We Love..........

When I was a child I thought I had this perfect life, and I did for me at that time.....in my world. I had a wonderful and yet sad conversation with my dear dear mom today, change is hard and frustrating especially as we age, we are resistant to things, we get set in our ways, and we write our story before it happens, and we think we are going to have this certain life and then things change, people change. my mom always told us if you want to make God laugh tell him your plans......that is so true! I guess my message today is, well we may think we go through  things alone, but we are part of bigger family, my parents will never never be a burden to me, sometimes we do things out of duty and obligation I do things for and with my parents out of love and devotion it is a privilege to me, an honor, a blessing, a gift, I love them so........there is nothing nothing, I wouldn't be there for. It is important to have those difficult conversations sometimes, the  hurtful tearful kind, only good in the end can come of it, it brings us closer to each other, we have understanding of each others needs and desires.....