Just a Little.

Just a little.....a little hope, a little help, a little story.

Thank's so much to all of you that have shared heartfelt concerns for me  and my family, how sweet you are, how blessed I am. I went to see my doctor. yes I did. I went. I did it.

I have to tell ya though, my doctor you see, is not like most doctors, first of all I could be his mother.....I have never been to a doctor that was younger than me, I normally only see women docs. my doctor of many years changed plans and I could no longer go there, I had to find someone new and last year about this time I found him.....through a friend. It's crazy he is so adorable, I can hardly think when I am around him, he's crazy cute and smart, and so stylish designer blue jeans, colored dress shirt and blazer, darling! serious crush material..... curly dark hair, truly he could be a model or tv star,

 ok enough already!

I decided to take everyones advice.....I made the appointment. I trudged down there. that familiar pit in my stomach, will I be able to share this with him, after-all he is my DOCTOR! He comes in, looking all perfect in his designer jeans and cool glasses, says it's nice to see me again and wanted to know about the tetanus shot I had last spring, something about some box springs, I laughed and said yes I found a cool old rusty set of bare box springs and used it as a wall in my booth and it was great to hang things off of, he said wow that is really cool.....had I impressed him? anyway we chatted a bit further and he asked me if I had found a job, and I then told him about 41 Taylor, further impressed? he then said to me, have you ever been on tv? I looked puzzled, radio, marketing ads? further puzzled, I said no, he said you are a good communicator, you annunciate really well and have great diction. WELL!!!!!!! I may have been blushing, I continued to listen and comment and he said you really are kind of a hip girl, me a hip girl, what is he the used car salesman of the doctor world, yikes......anyway I guess I still looked a little leary and he then said, do you know what diction is? I then replied, well yes I'm depressed not STUPID! I guess I cracked him up, I even cracked myself up......funny how little things can change you, we talked and I walked away with the meds!! and just a little hope.... a little funny.

a little better.

a little more courage.

a little step.

a little time.

Thanks!

Comments

[Beverly @ My Sew Sweet Studio]

That's great you took the step and saw the doctor. (I might find a reason to see the doctor if I had yours, but alas, I have a woman doctor) Really understand the little step part and feel you are on your way. A little is better than none.(I'm sure my Mom told me that) Keep up the good work. And all the positive remarks he said about you are true. You have all of those attributes and many more. Just believe in yourself, Tracey.

[Susan]

Great story, Tracey! Nothing like a little depression humor to perk yourself up! hehe
So glad you're on your way to feeling more like your authentic self. Who knows, maybe all you need is to schedule a few more trips just to SEE your doctor! Lucky you! My last Dr. was about 100 yrs. old, and my present Dr. is nice but kinda dorky! Anyway, you've been on my mind and I'm glad you're improving!
Blessings!

[Barbra]

Hi Tracey! I'm using an exclamation mark following your name because I'm just SO happy to 'see/read' you tonight....your post was a 'tickle' and while you have been blessed with a hunky doctor who recognizes "help is on the way" in complimentary words AND med. deeds I just needed to slip in wise words from Proverbs which says, "a merry heart doeth good like medicine".....something like your brave leap of faith today that led you into the stylin' and yet wise doctor that brought a smile to your face and hope to your heart! Even if it is 'only a little' -- tiny seeds DO grow with love and tender nurturing Tracey. I think you have two key ingredients in the 'love/tender' department Tracey!

Know that you are extravagantly blessed by His grace this night dear Tracey.
Barbra.

[Mandi Pike]

Sounds like he was just the medicine you need! Laughter is often the best medicine, and then he compliments you on top of the humor! So glad you went and are in better spirits.

Take care!

[Margaret Bouwmeester]

Hang in there Tracey, your first step to overcoming depression is that you acknowledge it. I went to a therapist for two years, I just needed some comfort, and a ear to listen. In a way that is what blogging is, we are all here to help and lend a shoulder to cry on and listen when you need it.
Life is about our journey and the people we meet along the way, sometimes we get lost but our friends and loved ones always come to guide us back. I am always here to listen and be a friend........
You needed to laugh and that's a good sign, maybe a small step, but at least it gave a bit of relief!!!
Hugs,
Margaret B

[Jo]

I'm glad you took the first step and went to the Dr. All you can do is put one foot in front of the other one...

[Anita]

Oh Tracey, you have made my heart happy...so glad you took that first step - your Dr sounds like a keeper. Keep smiling.
Love, Anita

[Jen]

He sounds like God has blessed him with the ability to help heal medically, but more importatntly God has blessed him with a charming, sensitive, true bedside manor... A rare combination if you ask me. Sounds like you are on a good path...

[pogonip@meadowsweet cottage]

What an unforeseen blessing that a change of health plan gifted you such a cutie pie of a doctor. Glad things are looking up for you. Now if we can just get some actual sunshine around here and rid ourselves of the ice...

[Suzanne@NotesfromthePatch]

What a well written post, full of great news. I'm happy for you. Hang on to the positive thoughts, they will help pull you out of this. You are so talented and so many of us look up to you. Knowing that you too have dark days helps us connect to you and love and support you all the more. I'll pray for your rapid recovery.

[Barbra]

Friday Hi's Tracey...I am just tagging on to my note of yesterday to you Tracey only to say 'hugs & hi's'. Praying that today wrapped around you like a cozy blanket. xx

God Bless,
Barbra.

[Philicia]

Yay for you!!! Just remember, it will take a couple of weeks for the meds to FULLY kick in. So, don't get concerned if you don't see a change really quickly. We have communicated by email before. Feel free to contact me again if you have ANY questions. I have gone through EXACTLY what you are living. Love~ Philicia

[Brandon]

Good for you. The first steps are the hardest.

[Julie Federico]

Wish I'd read your blog sooner. When I say you at Tickled Pink I would have hugged you harder and longer. I loved seeing your happy face in person once again. You looked luminous...

xo, juls

[Kelly]

Glad to hear your taking the steps needed...you will be fine....and listen to the doc..get out there and do some PR work!!...Radio...how about a show about junk-in...glad your smiling again..

Kelly

[Barbra]

It's a fresh week and just wanted you to read and to remember that the TLC still lingers over your little self Tracey.

God Bless You,
Barbra.

[cindy~my romantic home]

Oh YAY!!! I'm picturing a younger, better-looking Dr. Oz!!! He sounds great and I'm so glad he was able to make you smile and give you the meds!

[Barbra]

....a wrapped up package of 'verbal encouragement' for today Tracey.....with a cup of great caring.

God bless
Barbra.

[Kelli]

I was just like you a few years back. After my first daughter was born(almost a year after) I was diagnosed with Post Partum Depression. I went on meds and was doing great. I went off of the meds about 3 years after and was feeling great. My second daughter came along and they put me on meds again because my Dr.'s said the chances of it coming back were really high. So again I did. I decided to take myself off of them about 2 years ago. Big mistake....I felt the same way you did. I am all about having my makeup and hair done even if its just to go to the grociers. But I couldn't wait to get home and get into my sweats. I was tired all the time. Not motivated to do anything and that's not an easy task with a 1 1/2 year old and 6 year old. I went to my dr's and she said that some people just need to stay on something all the time. Even if it is a low dose. Just to take the edge off. I went back on a new med and its been great. Sure I still get the blues sometimes but its okay. My head is clearer now and when I do get a little blue I just know its going to be okay. Having a wonderful supportive family is also a huge thing. If it wasn't for my hubs I don't know what I'd do. My hubs and I kid around and call them my happy pills!:)
Tracey I wish you nothing but good health, love, and clarity all the days of your life.
Kelli
lovelyvintagecottagelife.blogspot.com

[Julie Federico]

Hi Girl,
Just a little love note to say thinking of you. Hope is eternal. Looking forward to seeing more of you soon.

xo, juls